身體裏的子彈 餘秀華 英文翻譯

身體裏的子彈

 

餘秀華

 

我的身體裏有一顆子彈，對準我的絕望

被命運通緝了40年的危險份子，她不去異鄉

她不隱姓埋名

隻有我的拳頭一次次在春天落空，撕不開夜色

我身體裏的子彈，也對準我的欲望

我不敢要你的回報。我和每一個遇見的人擁抱

也擁抱每一朵花：這天生的仇敵

這掩飾了身份的流民，這想放火燒天下的女人

我對你說的話從來不完整

下一句我說給一百個人聽，他們如果當真

就要承擔我的罪行

在我的許多夢裏，你從一具白骨開始走向人世

你的名字是我取的，可是我不敢喊你

我不敢喊你

我喊著許多名字，不管它們

是否安慰我的心

 

A bullet inside my body

 

Xiuhua Yu

 

I have a bullet inside my body, it aims at my despair

A dangerous participant who’s been listed as wanted by fate for forty years

She doesn’t leave for strange land   

She doesn’t live incognito

I just brandish my fists in vain in spring time and again

Can’t tear the night

The bullet inside my body

Also aims at my desire

I dare not request your reciprocation. I embrace everyone I meet

Also embrace every flower: my natural foe

This vagabond disguises his identity

This woman wants to burn up the world

My sentences to you are never complete

I want my next sentence to be heard by one hundred people

If they believe my words

They should assume my sins

In many of my dreams

You begin your journey to the live world from a skeleton of the dead

Your name is given by me

But I never dare to cry out your name

I never dare to cry out your name

I cry out many other names

Don’t care whether

They console my heart