身體裏的子彈 餘秀華 我的身體裏有一顆子彈,對準我的絕望 被命運通緝了40年的危險份子,她不去異鄉 她不隱姓埋名 隻有我的拳頭一次次在春天落空,撕不開夜色 我身體裏的子彈,也對準我的欲望 我不敢要你的回報。我和每一個遇見的人擁抱 也擁抱每一朵花:這天生的仇敵 這掩飾了身份的流民,這想放火燒天下的女人 我對你說的話從來不完整 下一句我說給一百個人聽,他們如果當真 就要承擔我的罪行 在我的許多夢裏,你從一具白骨開始走向人世 你的名字是我取的,可是我不敢喊你 我不敢喊你 我喊著許多名字,不管它們 是否安慰我的心 A bullet inside my body Xiuhua Yu I have a bullet inside my body, it aims at my despair A dangerous participant who’s been listed as wanted by fate for forty years She doesn’t leave for strange land She doesn’t live incognito I just brandish my fists in vain in spring time and again Can’t tear the night The bullet inside my body Also aims at my desire I dare not request your reciprocation. I embrace everyone I meet Also embrace every flower: my natural foe This vagabond disguises his identity This woman wants to burn up the world My sentences to you are never complete I want my next sentence to be heard by one hundred people If they believe my words They should assume my sins In many of my dreams You begin your journey to the live world from a skeleton of the dead Your name is given by me But I never dare to cry out your name I never dare to cry out your name I cry out many other names Don’t care whether They console my heart |