悉尼愛情故事 （六）終於說愛了

        Jervis Bay是距離悉尼南部180公裏的一個世外桃源。據說那裏有著全澳州乃至全世界最幹淨的海灘，海水純淨得似乎可以飲用，未受一點汙染的海灘被這千萬年純淨的海水衝刷得竟然有點成微微的粉紅色了。這個幽靜而漫長的海灘沒有黃金海岸，邦代海灘那麽多喧囂的遊人，正是用來慶祝John,Steph訂婚的好地方。

        我們這一撥子人開了兩個小時的車來到Jervis Bay，John的叔叔在這裏的海邊上有個一大房子，景色無邊還省了我們的住宿費。這是我第一次到澳洲人以外的老外家做客（說得有點拗口），他們從愛爾蘭移民到澳洲20多年了，卻仍然保持著一種獨特的純樸好客之情，雖然這裏是朋友的朋友的叔叔家，我竟然有一種回家的感覺。當我們風塵仆仆趕到叔叔家，嬸嬸Veronica已經準備好豐盛的晚餐，那一桌子10多個人喝著啤酒，吃著烤肉，分享著每一個人的故事，聽John再次講述求婚經過，聽叔嬸講述在澳洲的發家史，聽你好講述我倆認識的經過，讓我第一次感覺融入了老外的圈子，這裏真是一個很純淨的世界。

        晚餐後Veronica把我和你好安排到她女兒的房間就寢。她女兒在外省讀大學，房間一直空著，一屋子的粉紅和幹淨的床單及那些毛絨玩具看得出她對女兒的愛心，似乎在等待女兒隨時回來。看著這房間我們都不敢造次，更不用說Veronica臨走前的一句玩笑話，“no hanky-panky 啊",弄得我一個大紅臉（她怎麽什麽都知道），問你好怎麽辦，他笑著說，忍著唄.
  第二天一大早，享用完Veronica準備的愛爾蘭式早餐，我和你好就迫不及待的沿著海岸去散步了（不知不覺中我已經把中華民族早睡早起的美德傳給他了）。這一邊的Jervis Bay很安靜，碧藍的海水靜靜的拍打著沙灘，有幾個當地人站在礁岩上釣魚。在這裏感覺可以放開一切，忘掉塵世間的一切煩惱，真的好喜歡就這樣雙雙站著看一望無際的蔚藍，一刹那似乎變永恒。。。白天我們這一撥人的活動豐富多彩，出海潛水，再到另一個海灘曬太陽，回來吃大龍蝦，不知不覺就在當地的小酒館裏喝到了深夜，頂著滿天的繁星，一對一對的情侶們摟摟抱抱，一前一後的搖晃著往回家的路走著，記不清走了多久的路，終於看到Veronica的家了，情侶們都趕在了前麵，落在後麵的我們反而停下來，你好摟著我說，看天上的南十字星，我順著他手指的方向望去，Southern Cross,他說他會很懷念這個星座的，因為回到北半球就再也看不見了，我突然變得傷感了，這時他俯在我耳邊輕輕說了聲：I Love You。。。那一瞬間，（不知是不是仰頭看星空太久的緣故）我覺得一陣眩暈，相處了十個月，他終於開口說那三個字了，那一刻有心有歸屬的感覺，好象過去一切的委屈都值得了；那一刻的幸福至今難以用語言形容，讓我不再對前途充滿迷惑，不再對生活抱有猜忌；那一刻第一產生了想跟他走天涯的念頭，哪怕再辛苦，隻要有愛。我還想再聽他說一遍，於是假裝對他說：“你說什麽？”，他輕聲說：“你聽見了，你心裏知道我在說什麽。”

        是的，我的心聽見他在說：I Love You.我的心從此找到了依托。

        從那天起，我再也沒有傷感過了，對這份情感我變得十分自信，我真的不在乎將來會在那裏生活，澳洲，歐洲，隻要這份愛在，我們就永遠不會分開了。


        Jervis Bay回來後的那一個月，他拿到了澳洲國籍，於是離開澳洲的日子就越來越近。看著他開始賣車子，賣摩托車，辦理辭職，準備著離開JohnSteph的住所。JohnSteph很傷感他的離開，不準備再招室友了。很奇怪我竟然沒有怎麽傷感，感覺和他隻是小別一陣子，似乎很快就會又見到他。臨走前的兩個星期，他還不忘記去參加早就報了名的1悉尼萬人馬拉鬆，最後是他的going away party,沒想到竟然有那麽多的朋友，同事來為他送行，前前後後有四，五十人.

        終於到他離開悉尼的那一天，隻有我一人送他去機場，在悉尼他最後一次與我吻別，在悉尼他最後一次說 I Love You.

待續

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"I See You, You See Me"

I never wanted to love you, but that's ok
I always knew that you'd leave me anyway
But darling when I see you, I see me

I asked the boys if they'd let me go out and play
They always said that you'd hurt me anyway
But darling when I see you, I see me

Its alright I never thought I'd fall in love again
Its alright I look to you as my only friend
Its alright I never thought that I could feel this something
Rising, rising in my veins
Looks like it's happened again

I never thought that you wanted for me to stay
So I left you with the girls that came your way
But darling when I see you, I see me
I often thought that you'd be better off left alone
Why throw a circle round a man with broken bones
But darling when I see you, I see me

Its alright I never thought I'd fall in love again
Its alright I look to you as my only friend
Its alright I never thought that I could feel this something
Rising, rising in my veins
Looks like it's happened again

You always looked like you had something else on your mind
But when I try to tell you, you'd tell me never mind
But darling when I see you, you see me

I wanna tell you that I'll never love anyone else
You wanna tell me that you're better off by yourself
But darling when I see you, you see me

This is not what I'm like [x4]
This is not what I do
This is not what I'm like
I think I'm falling for you

I never thought - This is not what I'm like
I never thought - This is not what I do
I never thought - This is not what I'm like
I never thought - I think I'm falling for you
I never thought -
I never thought -
That I could feel this something
Rising, rising in my veins
Looks like it's happened again

And it looks like
I feel this something
Rising, rising in my veins
Looks like it's happened again