承受不住了

給遠方的朋友寫了封信。

You know what? One question I am asking is how much strength God can give me?
I am not questioning God. I am thinking some Christians with strong faith crashed under pressure,
so I might not be an exception.
I have tried my best to face the craziness and unfairness. What if there is a moment that I don't
have enough strength to stand the pressure.

Don't be worried and don't laugh at me. I start to write my will this afternoon. I stopped after a page and threw it
away.

My friend, we have been friends for 20 years. Sometimes, I thought if I have another 8 years ahead of me.
 Are we going to talk like this after 8 years?

Some guy at church once blamed me not to be a true Christian. But one thing I believe I accomplished is to  tolerate and
sacrifice for my family and my daughter.