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星期一, 大早晨就開始熱, 據說今天的最高氣溫可達27度, 這麽快就是夏天了. 老電腦終於支持不住, 光榮退休, 周末出去轉了轉, 發現電腦降價得厲害, 咬咬牙買了台新的, 雖然最近手頭很緊. 剛剛查過銀行帳號, 收入很少, 支出很多, 一直處於負增長狀態, 心虛得很, 單身女人最關心的兩件事, 一是容貌是否青春永駐, 二是銀行裏自己戶頭上的數字, 當然如果你老爸是Bill Gates, 可以忽略第二條. 很可惜, 我家老爸乃一老頑童type的布衣, 所以每次查看自己銀行戶頭的時候, 總要一邊發愁, 一邊注意不要皺眉, 因為皺眉會生皺紋, 那樣豈不是人財兩失... 我向來不是理財高手, 主要是態度不夠端正, 雖然認識到金錢的重要性, 但總抱著"千金散盡還複來"的想法, 有錢的時候花得大方, 沒錢的時候隻好發愁. 用專業FA的術語來說, 沒有形成positive cashflow, 缺乏saving plans. Saving大概是世上最難的事之一, 抑製自己的消費欲望比抑製食欲要難得多, 以前高中政治課上老師講過, 人是天生的消費者, 天生的!!! 唉, 每到這樣的時候, 我就會回顧過去的種種和錢擦肩而過的經曆, 如果當初嫁給Robert, 恐怕現在可以在家做太太享清福, 無需擔心錢; 如果當初沒有搞砸上一個工作, 每個月的收入至少會多出一截, 手頭可以寬裕很多; 如果... "If, is a very heavy word", 所有錯過的"如果", 偶爾想想就好, 如果, 真的再一次處於那樣的境地, 我可能還會做同樣的選擇, 所以, 談不上後悔, 隻是暢想一下其他的可能性而已.
現在的辦公室離Dave的辦公室不遠, 所以我們經常一起吃午飯, 或者下班後喝咖啡. Dave的狀況還是很糟, 為了省錢, 搬到他朋友家的basement, 雖然租金便宜很多, 但他的收入並未增加. 市場蕭條, recruiting很難做, 他那樣樂觀的人有時侯都會depressed, 我們的角色完全調換, 以前總是他在安慰我, 現在輪到我來安慰他. Dave said he had learned the lesson, I am not sure, he is a very generous guy, spent a lot when he had money, I dont think he would change once his situation getting better. We are the exactly same type of persons, that is why we can be so close to each other, so I know there is something deep inside which would never change, like the attitude to money or life, we are the type of persons who living for the moment, not planners. I cant say which way is better, plan everything ahead, live your life with strong self-discipline, never let your urge go over you, or go with the flow, do whatever you wanna do to enjoy every moment of your life as you could, make sure you are satisfied all the time... There are many choices in life, take your choice, and dont regret, that is the only point which actually matters.
關於愛情, 也是一樣, 態度問題, --"談戀愛就象打麻將，不認真沒樂趣，太認真易傷心, 培養點遊戲精神". F同學總是說, 如果不考慮將來, 那為什麽要約會; 我說, you can try to enjoy the moment, and there are always possibilities for the future coming along. Its very nice to have some future pictures with someone special, but nobody can guarantee the future, why get bothered by something not in your hands yet? Honestly, I dont really believe anything coulod last forever, and monogamy is not the best way to match human nature, so, when people say "I love you", you better realize there are different grades of love behind it. For example, my parents say they love me, I think they mean they love me for their whole lives, and they would do anything for me, I totally believe that, cos I love them exactly the same way. And when Kevin says he loves me, I think what he means is that he is very happy to be with me, nothing more than that, at least I dont tend to read more than that, and I return the same affection with my "I love you" line.
Its kinda depressing to be too rational and logical, isnt it?
現在的辦公室離Dave的辦公室不遠, 所以我們經常一起吃午飯, 或者下班後喝咖啡. Dave的狀況還是很糟, 為了省錢, 搬到他朋友家的basement, 雖然租金便宜很多, 但他的收入並未增加. 市場蕭條, recruiting很難做, 他那樣樂觀的人有時侯都會depressed, 我們的角色完全調換, 以前總是他在安慰我, 現在輪到我來安慰他. Dave said he had learned the lesson, I am not sure, he is a very generous guy, spent a lot when he had money, I dont think he would change once his situation getting better. We are the exactly same type of persons, that is why we can be so close to each other, so I know there is something deep inside which would never change, like the attitude to money or life, we are the type of persons who living for the moment, not planners. I cant say which way is better, plan everything ahead, live your life with strong self-discipline, never let your urge go over you, or go with the flow, do whatever you wanna do to enjoy every moment of your life as you could, make sure you are satisfied all the time... There are many choices in life, take your choice, and dont regret, that is the only point which actually matters.
關於愛情, 也是一樣, 態度問題, --"談戀愛就象打麻將，不認真沒樂趣，太認真易傷心, 培養點遊戲精神". F同學總是說, 如果不考慮將來, 那為什麽要約會; 我說, you can try to enjoy the moment, and there are always possibilities for the future coming along. Its very nice to have some future pictures with someone special, but nobody can guarantee the future, why get bothered by something not in your hands yet? Honestly, I dont really believe anything coulod last forever, and monogamy is not the best way to match human nature, so, when people say "I love you", you better realize there are different grades of love behind it. For example, my parents say they love me, I think they mean they love me for their whole lives, and they would do anything for me, I totally believe that, cos I love them exactly the same way. And when Kevin says he loves me, I think what he means is that he is very happy to be with me, nothing more than that, at least I dont tend to read more than that, and I return the same affection with my "I love you" line.
Its kinda depressing to be too rational and logical, isnt it?
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