6/23 星期一
(2008-06-23 01:27:46)
下一個
昨晚躺在床上看歐洲杯, 意大利對西班牙, 後半場的時候我就睡著了, 再醒來已經是PK戰, 西班牙成功出線, 我的預測超級準確, 應該去賭球, lol. 然後又一次睡著, 醒來, 遲到, 無所謂, 天蹋下來我都無所謂, 何況遲到... 老板S又要抓狂.
周六和高中同學聚會, 一個高中同學結婚, 懷孕, 為她慶祝的party. 好久沒見到那麽多高中的朋友, 大家在一起很開心, 不過話題大部分圍繞兩個主題, 一是工作, 二是家庭, 我都提不起興趣來. 工作最近不順利, 壓力大得很, 我根本不想提, 至於家庭, 想談我也得有啊?! 一個同學就快要當爸爸了, 忙著給懷孕的女生介紹經驗, 要注意這個, 注意那個... 我聽得有點頭暈. 聚會的主角, 準媽媽, 在去年12月認識她現在的丈夫, 然後在3個月內火速結婚, 現在懷孕4個月. 真讓人佩服, 我感歎得不得了, 曉在一旁對我說, "Jess, 結婚是需要勇氣的, 象你這樣東挑西挑的..." 我有東挑西挑嗎? 後來, 準媽媽給我們看她在醫院檢查時拍的她肚子裏的
baby影像, 3D, 4D什麽的, 淨是高科技. 可以清楚的看到baby的形狀, 大腦袋, 小手, 還有腿, 4個月就可以看這麽清楚, 我以前真的不知道, 大部分女生都充滿母愛的討論baby的手啊腳啊, I was kinda feeling that I wanna throw up, I just had dinner about 20 mins ago, and that little freaky alien look baby kinda scared me in a very strange way, no offense, I am sure that it would be a very cute baby. Anyway, I had great time with all my friends, except the weather really sucks.
昨晚我跟D聊天, 我很委婉的提出, 我們是不是可以考慮step back a little, well, breaking up... Cos I really think this long distance thing doesnt make much sense, and its suffering. A healthy relationship should be able to make me happy, if I am not happy, why I wanna do it? Just set each other free, it would be much easier for both of us. But D said, "Dont give up, keep trying..." LOL, I really dont know what we trying for, well, whatever then.
I wanna run away again, from Tokyo.
誰說有約就一定要有合同? 貨比三家的道理聽說過吧...
有時侯,成全別人的同時就在成全我們自己,不過是有些人不知覺罷了.
我隻能痛心疾首加怒其不爭……
言歸正傳——如果真感情,赴湯蹈火真君子;如果不痛不癢,輕易不要首先提出“我覺得不合適……”經驗告訴我們,誰穩到最後,誰的生活永遠安寧、和諧而且無任何把柄前科。你不提出來你也不會慚愧得活不下去;你提出來你也未必輕鬆得馬上進入真正的愛情,什麽叫成熟和長大?那就是不幹成全人不利己的事情。
就算打呼嚕也要睜著眼睛打。就算吐泡泡也要昂首挺胸的吐。
hehe... hopefully I would feel ready someday :) my friend is busy dealing with the little alien in her tummy, no time looking around here... I hope so, lol.
To sony008,
羨慕吧...
You will feel completely different by the time your are ready to become a mom yourself, so it's OK to feel the baby is "kinda alien like little thing", just make sure your friend wouldn't see your post, she'll kill you!!