jgey的單身日記
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這個冬天突然變得很漫長, 已經是3月中旬, 仍舊冷, 我的耐心已耗盡, 無可奈何的鬱悶. 上一周隻有一天準時到公司, 基本都是下午到, 很晚走, 我決定把裝病進行到底. LEADER問我是不是身體不舒服, 我說是的, 我很鬱悶, 需要每天看醫生, 抑鬱症是最好的借口, 我可以活蹦亂跳的同時病入膏肓. 其實, 我覺得自己真正的問題是A.D.D., Attention Deficit Disorder, 這個正好解釋了為什麽我不能集中考慮比較認真的問題超過5分鍾, 且不喜歡COMMIT, 因為A.D.D.!!!
我和UNCLE GEORGE又發生爭執. 他對我和MARIO的關係覺得困惑, 認為我們要麽totally physical relationship like f buddies, or into a real relationship, 我覺得存在即是合理. Mario said he can cook really good italian food, and can make cheesecakes, WOW, that is quite something, especially for a cheesecake lover like me. Then George thought I should push a little more on this, try to join Mario's life cycle...I was like, "WHY???" Well, I would rather to set him free, if its love, he comes back to me, if its not, then why the hell I want it? Anyway, that is not the main point I argued with George, I said something really harsh to him, its cos the day before he told me how great to be in a marriage for women, how happy his wife with the marriage...blah blah... then the very next day, he just slept with somebody else, thats called cheating! I was like "what the fuck you doing? you told me all bullshit abt marriage, now look at you, you are such an asshole to cheat on ur wife!" George said, "say that when u are in a marriage!" Thats really ridiculous, cos he in a marriage, that means he can cheat??? If you cant keep the commitment, then dont get married! Well, anyway, its none of my business, I just feel bad for his wife, maybe like what George said, --dumb is a gift.
周五晚上, 本來打算加班, DAVID說一起喝杯咖啡, 他接下來有約, 我正好回來繼續加班. 結果, 我們的一杯咖啡喝了3個多小時, 我的加班計劃徹底泡湯. 當然不隻是咖啡, 我們一起吃了晚飯, ROTI的HAMBURGER, almost the best hamburger in Tokyo, I have been to ROTI a couple times, but never tried the swordfish hamburger, David said its really good, well, he is totally right. I dont know why, recently I am kinda addicted to hamburgers. We had hamburgers and wine, then went to TGI Friday, just cos Friday's drinks had cherry with stem, we wanna give a try to that tongue magic so much, and it turned out that we both failed, I think the stems are not long enough, that is why, LOL. We stayed together for the whole Saturday, watched a couple of movies, and Russell Peters video, which is hilarious. Late afternoon lunch, and talk, its very relaxing to talk with David, we probably could talk about everything, no taboo at all, that is so cool. 我覺得我和DAVID講的話大概比我和MARIO過去6個月講的話的總和還要多, I even know that David has an aunt who loves casino. It seems this kinda talking thing becomes therapy for both of us, relieving us from all stress from wherever or whoever.
我和DAVID是同一類人, curious, open to try anything, most time confused, laid back, wanna become idealist but lack of courage, lack of discipline, not organized at all, love good food, drinks, clubs, and city life. 很多時候, 我都覺得我們兩個好象兩隻性格相近的流浪貓, 突然相遇, 然後惺惺相惜, 超越男女之情, 很奇妙的感覺. We almost have the same types of problems in life, maybe in different scales, but I totally understand his situation, so does he, its amazing. Think about Mario, I like him maybe because he has something I dont have, well, I didnt mean his dick, apparently I dont have that, I mean his life style, his being disciplined and organized, he can get up at 6am to work everyday, WOW, that just sounds so cool to me. If a company wants me to get up at 6am everyday, they better pay really good. Anyway, Mario is in military, military life is all about discipline. I am confused again, not very sure what I really like about Mario, or its just purchasing something that I didnt get yet? Tough question...then leave it alone, that is what ADD people do.
I gonna be more disciplined next week, or before I find the next job, this company might have fired me, that sucks.
我和UNCLE GEORGE又發生爭執. 他對我和MARIO的關係覺得困惑, 認為我們要麽totally physical relationship like f buddies, or into a real relationship, 我覺得存在即是合理. Mario said he can cook really good italian food, and can make cheesecakes, WOW, that is quite something, especially for a cheesecake lover like me. Then George thought I should push a little more on this, try to join Mario's life cycle...I was like, "WHY???" Well, I would rather to set him free, if its love, he comes back to me, if its not, then why the hell I want it? Anyway, that is not the main point I argued with George, I said something really harsh to him, its cos the day before he told me how great to be in a marriage for women, how happy his wife with the marriage...blah blah... then the very next day, he just slept with somebody else, thats called cheating! I was like "what the fuck you doing? you told me all bullshit abt marriage, now look at you, you are such an asshole to cheat on ur wife!" George said, "say that when u are in a marriage!" Thats really ridiculous, cos he in a marriage, that means he can cheat??? If you cant keep the commitment, then dont get married! Well, anyway, its none of my business, I just feel bad for his wife, maybe like what George said, --dumb is a gift.
周五晚上, 本來打算加班, DAVID說一起喝杯咖啡, 他接下來有約, 我正好回來繼續加班. 結果, 我們的一杯咖啡喝了3個多小時, 我的加班計劃徹底泡湯. 當然不隻是咖啡, 我們一起吃了晚飯, ROTI的HAMBURGER, almost the best hamburger in Tokyo, I have been to ROTI a couple times, but never tried the swordfish hamburger, David said its really good, well, he is totally right. I dont know why, recently I am kinda addicted to hamburgers. We had hamburgers and wine, then went to TGI Friday, just cos Friday's drinks had cherry with stem, we wanna give a try to that tongue magic so much, and it turned out that we both failed, I think the stems are not long enough, that is why, LOL. We stayed together for the whole Saturday, watched a couple of movies, and Russell Peters video, which is hilarious. Late afternoon lunch, and talk, its very relaxing to talk with David, we probably could talk about everything, no taboo at all, that is so cool. 我覺得我和DAVID講的話大概比我和MARIO過去6個月講的話的總和還要多, I even know that David has an aunt who loves casino. It seems this kinda talking thing becomes therapy for both of us, relieving us from all stress from wherever or whoever.
我和DAVID是同一類人, curious, open to try anything, most time confused, laid back, wanna become idealist but lack of courage, lack of discipline, not organized at all, love good food, drinks, clubs, and city life. 很多時候, 我都覺得我們兩個好象兩隻性格相近的流浪貓, 突然相遇, 然後惺惺相惜, 超越男女之情, 很奇妙的感覺. We almost have the same types of problems in life, maybe in different scales, but I totally understand his situation, so does he, its amazing. Think about Mario, I like him maybe because he has something I dont have, well, I didnt mean his dick, apparently I dont have that, I mean his life style, his being disciplined and organized, he can get up at 6am to work everyday, WOW, that just sounds so cool to me. If a company wants me to get up at 6am everyday, they better pay really good. Anyway, Mario is in military, military life is all about discipline. I am confused again, not very sure what I really like about Mario, or its just purchasing something that I didnt get yet? Tough question...then leave it alone, that is what ADD people do.
I gonna be more disciplined next week, or before I find the next job, this company might have fired me, that sucks.
至於大叔道貌岸然， 言行不一， that's a different story le
its meaningless to argue with judgemental people, cos they could never accept different opinions, that is why they are called judgemental.
你這難道就不judgmental了嗎？！ 其實每人每刻都在用自己的觀念來評價世界，隻是有的比較vocal一些罷了。
我覺得你這人非常的JUDGEMENTAL,喜歡以你自己的標準來判斷別人的感覺,他們對他們的婚姻怎麽看,是他們自己的事情,和局外人沒關係.
我對GEORGE生氣,是因為他一直PUSH我結婚,同時又show me the ugly part every marriage could have, kinda ridiculous.
我最最討厭JUDGEMENTAL的人...比CHEATER還甚.
I guess, if you can still call it a "marriage". 一個為了飯票，一個為了麵子（？）， sigh. 結婚後難道就真得那麽痛苦乏味無聊嗎？
再者，存在並非合理，這種高中議論文的話題就不需我再動筆了吧。
他說"dumb is a gift",並不是針對他太太的,而是別的談話.我覺得他太太知道他和別的女人上床,但是她絕對不想離婚.客觀而論,除了CHEATING外,GEORGE確實是個不錯的丈夫,給他太太提供一切她所需要的舒適生活,記得在所有紀念日買價值不菲的禮物,表現得得體...
每個人對婚姻的要求不同,我覺得他們的婚姻很大可能性會持久,因為雙方都在一定程度上滿意,處於一種平衡狀態.
當然,我覺得我是不會接受這樣的婚姻的,但他太太可以,存在即是合理,so what?
當然，從網上筆殲一個從未見過的人總是很容易的， 也許他真的有苦衷。 但是如果是那樣，他好歹要有一些歉意，而不是在網上對寧外的年輕妹妹炫耀。如果關係實在是無法彌補，離婚算了。
唉，星期一一大早上班就看到這麽depressing的帖子，我的話可能有點說過了，要刪就刪吧，隻是比較氣憤。