7/19 星期三-II

因為無聊,於是想盡辦法發散過剩的精力.中午去GYM,跑步,跑到頭腦一片空白...從鏡子裏看到可愛的INSTRUCTOR RYO, 忍不住細細打量, bring smile, strong arm...so sexy! 他指導的那個老外長得也蠻漂亮,我一邊做WEIGHT LIFTING,一邊CHECK THEM OUT.看帥哥也是件讓人開心的事情,GYM裏的男人雖然沒有帥得象金城武,但健康,FIT,也很賞心悅目.working out is kinda self-control, a guy who goes working out regularly and being fit may have a strong will and good self-control on his own life, which is very attractive.

運動過後,一邊做CYCLING,一邊隨便翻GYM的雜誌放鬆,--日本的女性時尚雜誌[CLASSY].翻到這樣一頁,--"男人喜歡的女性STYLE",日本女人把"女為悅己者容"做到極至,一置千金買高檔服飾和化妝品,打扮得精致得體,最終的目的還是為了要討男人的歡心,所以日本的女性時尚雜誌經常有這樣的COLUMN,找各行各業的男生討論他們所喜歡的女生打扮,或是FEMININE,或是CUTE...這是我非常討厭日本女性時尚雜誌的最主要原因之一,我辛辛苦苦的賺錢,開開心心的花錢,為什麽要在乎那些莫名其妙的男人的看法?為什麽要降低我自己的品位去迎合某些男人的糟糕品位?這種COLUMN實在是愚蠢,所以我寧願看ELLE或VOGUE這樣的純FASHION雜誌.

上周六是廖的生日, I sent a message to say happy birthday, he replied "thank you". Cant believe he already turned to be 29 years old, time is flying, it has been 4 years, since the first time I met him. 4年,好長的時間,還是一樣的無奈,沒什麽緣分,偶爾知道他的消息,知道他過得還不錯,就這樣啦.我們注定隻是彼此生命裏的過客,任何努力都沒有意義.

前幾天聽信樂團的[死了都要愛],很喜歡.喜歡那種強烈的感覺,"死了都要愛,不淋漓盡致不痛快...死了都要愛,不哭到微笑不痛快",怎樣勇敢的人才能這樣去愛,這樣應該不會無聊,才可以刺激我半死不活的神經.可惜,能夠愛到這樣強烈的對象實在很難找,這年頭大家都很CASUAL, CASUAL的約會,CASUAL的愛,不疼不癢,不動心也不傷心,究竟是進化,還是退化???現在我隻對漂亮的鞋有強烈的感覺,本來想好這個月不要再買任何奢侈品,但在ISETAN看到JIMMY CHOO的鞋就挪不動腳步,讓SALES抱來各款35半SIZE的鞋,一雙一雙的試,開心得不得了.和JIMMY CHOO的"約會"很快樂,但是快樂是有代價的,將近500$從我錢包裏消失了,帶回家一雙閃亮的紫色高跟鞋,its fabulous.

[jgey]

TO M+M
有些人值得KEEP IN TOUCH,有些人不值得啦...不過分手後成朋友的少之又少...說明大家愛得都很深刻嘛,哈!

TO G.C.
the balance between money and shoes is much tougher to handle =)

[G.C.]

That's risk you run dating a friend, but then again the reward can also be super sweet. Everything in life is a balancing act, like money, or shoes?

[M+M]

I totally agree with your friend Allen's theory. most relatoinship end coz 2 people cant stand each other's behavior. say, one jerk i dated ended up giving me a midle fingure. i don't see any point still being friend with him

so, you're right, not having him is the only way to have someone forever.