話說這一段時間比較冷落“Boss”(肚子改名字了),主要是和帥哥接觸比較頻繁的緣故。他沒打電話來,我也就沒打過去。我還在想,是不是他來我家偵查過了,看到帥哥的車每周六都停在我家driveway上。要知道帥哥的寶馬車從來不進我家車庫的。我offer過,說天冷,停進來還暖和些。人家說走時晚了,別吵了你女兒。我還在想是不是他發覺後,自動消失了呢。
今天手頭的事兒多,下班後沒能馬上走掉,突然手機響了,這個時間一般是沒人給我打電話的。拿起來一看是Boss。他說上星期給我發了email, 沒見我回。想來可能我沒收到,所以再打個電話問個好。我說:"你發哪兒去了?"他說:"yahoo的那個。"我一聽,那個是我用match時臨時注冊的郵箱,早就不用了。他沒有我別的郵箱,就發那兒去了。我解釋了後又問:“你不是有我電話嗎?發郵件幹嘛?“他說:“Dont' want to press any pressure on you." 我趕著接孩子,答應晚飯後再打給他,就匆匆收了線。
後來有打回去,才知道:原來他病了兩個星期,上周好點兒了,就想聯係我。但是可能也覺得隔了一段時間沒聯係,怕我有別人了。所以instead of calling or texting, he emailed me. 我喜歡boss的這種低調。他做事的風格一點兒也不象個boss。不知在別人麵前如何,在我麵前他就象個服務生。我覺得他雖然喜歡我,可是其實從心裏覺得有點兒配不上我。
不知道是天意還是什麽。帥哥今晚加班兒,所以我和boss能無所顧及地聊了近兩個小時。不然,不接帥哥的電話,他可是會問的。
困了,下次再說吧。
(未完待續)
You said that boss is older than you a lot, that's why he cared about you more to balance his age. But after he has commited to you, that might not continue. Nobody would do it in a long lasting relationship.
帥哥 is more natural. If his weight in every aspects is enough, you wouldn't have much complians.
I think you put yourself in a right position so you can judge the relationship more accurately and handle it well.