[Gilbert O'Sullivan] Alone Again naturally 自然獨處

 In a little while from now
If I'm not feeling any less sour
I promise myself to treat myself
And visit a nearby tower
And climbing to the top
Will throw myself off
In an effort to
Make it clear to whoever
Wants to know what it's like

When you're shattered
Left standing in the lurch at a church
Were people saying, My God, that's tough
She stood him up
No point in us remaining
We may as well go home
As I did on my own
Alone again, naturally
To think that only yesterday

I was cheerful, bright and gay
Looking forward to who wouldn't do
The role I was about to play
But as if to knock me down
Reality came around
And without so much as a mere touch
Cut me into little pieces
Leaving me to doubt
Talk about, God in His mercy

Oh, if he really does exist
Why did he desert me
In my hour of need
I truly am indeed
Alone again, naturally
It seems to me that
there are more hearts
Broken in the world
that can't be mended

Left unattended
What do we do
What do we do
Alone again, naturally
Looking back over the years
And whatever else that appears
I remember I cried when my father died
Never wishing to hide the tears

And at sixty-five years old
My mother, God rest her soul
Couldn't understand why the only man
She had ever loved had been taken
Leaving her to start
With a heart so badly broken
Despite encouragement from me

No words were ever spoken
And when she passed away
I cried and cried all day
Alone again, naturally
Alone again, naturally



一直在想什麽是孤獨？ 孤立？獨自？ 隻要自己不拋棄自己，那就不會孤獨，有一種快樂就是找到自己，麵對自己， 接受自己，無論外麵天翻地覆，多麽黑暗，都不怕， 隻要有自己迷戀喜好，哪怕就是喜歡掃地搽鍋頭， 生活起來就會有節奏韻律快樂，這種快樂不需要別人施舍，自己土造！

母親告訴我她每天都很開心， 不知她的快樂從哪來， 又不太出門， 又不聽音樂，不懂了。

記得小的時候，母親下班回來把鍋頭搽得亮亮的，她會興奮地給我看，前段時間電話中母親自豪地說她叫阿姨把被子放好，然後她自己花了一個下午針線釘好了一床被子，真厲害！我為我的母親自豪！針線活也有韻律， 她肯定是一邊針線一邊哼歌，母親真會土造快樂啊。

孤獨也讓人靜思，自由海闊天空，有難過就自己找自己談話，懶得去麻煩別人開導，但願我身上有那麽點母親傳來的土造快樂基因, 這樣就不怕憂鬱的偶爾襲擊和想不通了。

無論怎麽樣， 每天一個人陪伴自己一直走完人生的還是自己， 學會自然獨處，享受快樂，消化痛楚，生命之歌全是高調也太單調蒼白，也不好聽。