Go to court

Finally, I went to court to deal with the relationship with Amy's mom (I do not want to call her my wife because she has not been my wife since she left with rubbish Russian three years ago). I have filed a divorce a year ago, however, Amy's mom did not sign the document. So I have to deal with it using two year separate decree. I am so afraid of going to court. This is one reason that the matter has been delayed for so long. I wish I had done it last year and so I might save the agony I got now.
Had been my wife for almost 15 years, Amy's mom is not a bad person. She has some very good characters such as hardworking, saving, diligient. However, she has fatal flaws.  She was raised in an unhappy family. She is a psychic person. Her mind is constantly drifting from one place to another. She is naive and vulnerable, however, she thought she is smart. Now, she was manipulated by the Russian, howeve, she think she outwit him. Her naiveness is so obvious that anybody meet her could recognize easily. The Russian is using her weakness  to manipulate, to control her. Currently, she has lost her common sense. She does not have any moral values for a family. For a Chinese man I could not endure this shameful things even for a minute. However, for the kids and her sake, I called her everyday in her first year departure and even find a job for her in my city, however she refused to come back. When she left Amy was only two years old. What a mother could leave her two year daughter to go away with her lover?
I met my girl friend in early last year by phone. We are 400 miles apart, however, the phone call kept us together. We stayed together hundreds of hours by phone. When we feel sad and vulnerable and we comfort each other. When we feel happy and joy and we laugh together. She taught me to solve problem using love, the love from Jesus Christ. She changed my life. My girl friend is a mom with two lovely kids. Her husband went away with his new girl friend and dispeared. The mom worked through all the problems and hardness and had a happy family. Recently, I feel the thread is loosening. I feel heart broken. I actually cried last evening. I just can not control myself. Through the two year's phone call, she has been carved in my heart. I would like to say to her " I love you no matter what". Love is infinite.
The broken heart told me that I should solve the problem as soon as possible, so I went to court to file the divorce.