又一次委曲求全

父親節早上,看見門口放著的禮物盒,真為LG高興,女兒總惦記著所有該慶賀的日子,不忘奉上一片心意,為了每一個特別的日子,她都會精心策劃期待.當然這一天也是滿心歡喜地與我商量出外用餐,準備舉杯共祝LG:Happy Father's day!

整裝待發後,意想不到的事又一次發生了.LG發動了汽車後,我欲上車,但門是自動上鎖的,不知他出於什麽動機,倒車往前開了一段路才讓上車,因為類似的場景前一天也發生過,我就責疑他為什麽總是喜歡與我作對,難道要我不高興他才開心嗎?以前有過太多諸如此類的事情了.這下他就象火藥筒一樣大吼大叫,我保持沉默,由於長久來結聚了過多的鬱悶,我在那裏暗自抽泣.他卻更加肆無忌憚地罵人,丟轉車頭說:還吃什麽飯,回去了.後來因為不想拂了女兒的心意而讓女兒掃心,又委屈求全了一次.當然內心是無比的......,回想起來,每次隻是一些雞毛蒜皮的小事,他就可以為之大發雷霆,有時明顯是他的蠻不講理引起的,而結局都是以我的委曲求全收場,其實我隻需要一個溫馨甜蜜的家,為了女兒維護我們本來幸福美滿的家而已,可是有時好不容易刻意營造的氣氛總被他無情地打破,雖然很不願意地提及他的那段出軌往事,可還是忍不住聯想起除了那個無恥的女人,是誰讓他變得如此不可理喻呢?.
在情緒崩潰的邊緣,有時我懷疑還能支撐多久,

 

 

 

[絲絲心雨]

回複cj20878的評論:
謝謝你,其實在那事件中我學會了很多,雖然心傷依舊,我已經在漸漸學會忘卻,學會堅強.我何必為別人的過錯付出代價呢.我會好好地生活著,享受多彩的人生.

[cj20878]

Accidentally read your BLOG. It sounds so helpless but imply your wisdom.
Be strong! Not all the marriages ended up with happiness. It really does not matter the love is still existing in the marriage or not. It matters that if or not he/she bear the responsibility for the kid(s), - they are the foundation of marriage.If so, you should feel lucky that your hubby still care the marriage since he cares your kids!
Life is going on, same as love! After another 5 yrs, you will see that your marriage easily survive.

However, what happens when your daughter leaves for college? - That will be crisis, in my opinion.

Be strong!