真庸日記
我想找一個安全的地方,寫下不敢讓身邊人看到的隱私.這就是我的日記,真實而平凡,還有一點枯燥.但這不正是我們的生活嗎?
什麽是真正的憂傷? 永遠.
什麽是...................? 還是永遠.
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英文版: http://blog.wenxuecity.com/blogview.php?date=200610&postID=10703&page=1#mark
----------------Thank you Melly for sharing this beautiful story with us------------------------
Once upon a time, two grains of sand were lying quietly on the seabed. They were two feet apart. She loved him very much. She looked at him everyday peacefully and happily. It was very quiet under the sea. They did not need to worry about any changes. What she wanted was to be with him and shared everyday with him. The dinosaur walked along the beach and left their big footprints, which were washed away by the tide. Suddenly she came up with an idea, “ I should move to him. I desire to tell him that I love him.” She started her long journey. She rolled little by little, never wasted any external power which could help her movement, no matter the power was micro undercurrent or weak swirls generated by swimming fish. She appreciated all strength she obtained.
Time flied fast. Millions of years had passed. She was finally in front of him when human being appeared on the earth. She looked at him deeply with love and thought about the two feet she moved within two hundreds millions of years. She felt she was the happiest one in the world. They looked at each other without saying any word. Later, she finally decided to tell him her love.
However, a strong stream came and the current floated her. She was sucked into a cave. She gave her long journey and her beloved one a final glance. She could not say anything before the cave closed. She realized that she was captured by a clam, in which she could only feel the darkness.
The clam opened his shell from time to time, which gave her an opportunity to see the outside. She noticed that he was close to her and looking at her. She was thrilled because he was still waiting for her. She did not know how long she stayed in the clam. One day, she felt the calm was shaking and opened his shells. She saw the surface of the sea, the sun, the boats and human beings. People stared at her cheerfully since she had already changed to a pearl, which was big, bright and pretty. The pearl was invaluable to human beings but only a painful accident to the dead clam. The pearl was decorated on the crown. Although the pearl (she) felt very forlorn, she was not desperate. Because she was confident that he was still waiting for her under the sea.
She watched the kingdom becoming strong and prosperous, then waned and dwindled. When the king died, she was buried with his dead body. Thinking about that he was still waiting for her there, she was not panic and scary. They had plenty of time to be back together again. She traveled for two hundreds millions of years for him when she was in the sea.
She did not feel alone although she was all by herself. Her heart was in peace whenever she thought of him, the one she loved deeply. Hundreds of years later, the tomb was opened. Two ghouls stole the pearl. They fought with each other for getting it greedily and unfortunately they were all dead. The pearl was dropped into the river. She knew most of the rivers on earth would eventually merge to the sea so she hoped to follow the river and went back. She desired to meet him again. Even it would take a long time, hundreds of millions of years. She believed that he was determinedly waiting for her at where they met .
Unfortunately, when it rained, landslide happened. The pearl (she) was buried under the dirt and mud. She was very disappointed. However, she was confident that she still had opportunity to be back since the earth was moving much faster than she did.
Again millions of years had passed. The pearl was changed back to her real look as a grain of sand. She would meet him again as a pure, neat and clean sand.
She heard rumbling above the earth. She was sent in a gold mine now. She and other stones and dirt were threw into a hot jug. Until now she realized that she was a grind of sand, which was composed of gold. Soon she was melted with other small pieces of gold and made to a gold block. People hide the gold in a storage somewhere. She spent many years in the storage sadly. She prayed that miracle would take her back to the sea in the unpredictable future. Then she would looked for everywhere for him, whom she loved most.
One day, the sands between gold blocks were taken out, she had no idea what would happen. The gold block was made to a music disc and recorded every beautiful language and sound in the world, including the sound of the wave. She was freaked out when the disc was installed into the space shuttle. She asked the gold beside her, “where are we going?” “We are being sent to the universe and convey human being’s information to other possible intelligences.” Other gold was so proud, “ not every gold molecule has this opportunity.”
The space shuttle launched. She looked at the earth being farther and farther away from her. The earth was beautiful and weak in the immense universe. She suddenly understood that she could never return to the sea. She could never go back to him. He did not promise anything but waited for her endlessly. Her history was marvelous. She was the prettiest pearl, the purest gold in the world. Now she was flying into the universe and would become a marker from the earth in the universe. However, compared to all of these, she would rather to be an ordinary sand in the sea, she would rather to stay with her beloved sand for only one hour. She would rather to enjoy the simple love between the two pity sands.
She busted into tears. The universe heard her crying sadly and endlessly.
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很久很久以前，在寂靜的海底躺著兩粒砂。他們相距兩尺。一粒砂愛上了另外一粒。她凝視著兩尺開外的意中砂，平安幸福地過了好多年。水下風平浪靜，砂粒覺得自己很幸福，因為她知道有自己愛的砂可以讓自己凝視，不用管水麵上的台榭焦土，滄海桑田。
沙灘上現出恐龍的腳印。潮水湧來，腳印消失了，沒有留下任何痕跡。這與海底的砂粒無關，但是在這一時刻她忽然冒出了一個念頭：要到自己所愛的砂粒麵前對他說愛他。於是砂粒開始了漫長的旅途，她一點一點地滾動，不放過任何一點動力，不管是細如發絲的暗流還是魚們攪起的微弱旋渦。每當有這種力量是她總是覺得很感謝上蒼。
沙灘上的腳印換成了劍齒虎的，潮水仍然無聲地抹去了這個生物留下的印記。砂粒距離她所愛的另一粒砂隻有三寸了。再往後，沙灘上出現了人類的腳印，當潮水再一次將這些腳印抹掉的時候，砂粒終於來到了意中砂的麵前。她癡癡地看著自己所愛的砂，想想自己在兩億年間所走過的漫長的兩尺，瞬間感到天上地下所有的幸福全部都堆砌到了自己一個身上。兩粒砂互相看著，不說什麽。很久。砂粒終於決定要開口了。
正在這時一股水流湧來，巨大的吸力使砂粒漂起來，被吸進了一個洞裏。他最後一眼看了看自己漫長的旅程，看了看自己愛著的砂粒，不知道該說什麽。這時洞口合上了，頓時一片黑暗。他知道自己被一個蚌捕獲了。
在以後的歲月裏蚌偶爾會張開殼，砂粒還能看看外麵的世界，這時他就看到那另一粒砂也在不遠的地方凝視著自己。砂粒知道，世界是美好的。因為在光陰無法侵襲的海底，有另一粒砂在等待著自己。
某個時刻砂粒忽然覺得蚌有一點搖動，不久蚌殼張開了，映入眼簾的是海麵，陽光，船和人類，人類用欣喜若狂的眼神望著他，他環視一下自身，知道自己已經變成了珍珠。這粒珍珠圓潤碩大，在人類而言是無價之寶，可是對珍珠的製造者，死去的蚌來說隻是一個帶了些痛苦的意外。很快珍珠就被鑲嵌到了王冠上。已經變成珍珠的砂粒覺得很悲哀，但是並不絕望，因為她知道，另一粒砂在海底，癡癡地然而永遠地等待著她。
砂粒在王冠的頂端看著百官朝拜，看著國王老去，看著帝國衰落。隨後國王終於死去了。王冠被用來陪葬。當王冠被放到棺材裏的時候她聽到墓穴門被關上。她心裏想著的是在海底等待自己的另一粒砂。她並不驚慌，因為她有的是時間，她為了兩尺距離整整旅行了兩億年。
黑暗的墓穴並不寂寞，時常有老鼠之類的來和他做伴。她獨自呆著，不知道光陰的流逝。
後來墓穴被打開了，兩個盜墓者偷走了王冠，還有王冠上的珍珠。很不幸，他們在一條河邊為了這粒最大的珍珠開始相互鬥毆，雙雙死亡。
珍珠掉到了河邊。珍珠中的砂粒燃起了一輩子從未有過的希望。她知道世界上的很多河水最終都要流到海裏。等雨季來臨，她就可以隨著河水流下，到海裏去尋找他。也許要經過無窮歲月才能達到最初的地方，可是有什麽關係呢？她知道另一粒砂一定會在海底做永遠的等待，望穿秋水。
很快雨季來了，可是來臨的不是暴漲的河水而是泥石流。珍珠和珍珠之中的砂粒一同被埋到了淺淺的地下。砂粒非常失望，可是她知道自己還有機會，因為陸地也是運動的，而且比自己快得多。
又是一個漫長。珍珠層已經被剝離得沒有了，砂粒又露出了自己的本色，她覺得很幹淨，自己可以一塵不染地去見另一粒砂了。
上麵傳來沉重的隆隆聲，這是一個金礦，砂粒和其他石頭、泥土等一起被扔到了一個酷熱的罐子裏。直到這時她才發覺自己原來是一粒金砂。很快，她和其他金子被融合到了一起，煉成一塊金磚，運到了什麽地方的金庫收藏起來。砂粒在悲傷中度過了很多年，想到海底的另一粒砂就覺得心如刀攪，但是她安慰自己說：還會有機會的。不可預知的未來也許會再次把她回複成一粒砂，並且把她帶回大海，那樣她就可以做長久的搜尋，為了茫茫大海之中的另一粒砂，為了在海底等待她的那一粒砂。
有一天金磚和金磚之中的砂粒被一起取出，他不知道自己將會怎麽樣，金磚被做成了一張唱片，記錄下了地球上的各種語言和聲音，包括大海的波濤。直到唱片被安裝在發射架上的火箭裏時砂粒才覺得有些驚慌，她問身邊的黃金：我們這是要去哪裏？
要飛向宇宙，向其他可能存在的智慧生命傳達地球人類的信息。其他黃金驕傲地回答：不是每個黃金分子都有這樣的機會的。
正在這時火箭發射了。砂粒看著越來越遠的地球，在宇宙中地球美麗而脆弱。她忽然間明白自己永遠也不可能回到大海，回到沒有任何諾言就在海底無盡等待自己的那一粒砂麵前了。她有極為值得驕傲的曆史，她曾經是世界上最美麗的珍珠，最純的黃金，現在她是一粒飛上了茫茫宇宙的砂粒，是一個星球向宇宙所做的標記。可是比起這一切來她寧願在海底做一粒砂，哪怕在自己所愛的砂粒身邊呆上一個小時，就灰飛煙滅。僅僅是為了兩粒砂之間可憐簡單的愛情。
宇宙空間之中穿出一粒沙的哭聲，飄蕩著，經久不息……
我們所能做到的就是珍惜所擁有的瞬間~~~