dont understand

there are lots of things that I should be patient and have a lesson, and technically, there are a lot of things that I dont understand, which include myself.

I thought everything is over with him but dont know why still have idea with him, esp. when going to nightclubing, pub and karaoke with friends in night time. Am I over in this person whom I didnt, dont and will not mean to fall into with but just only at my side. When can I get over with this? He knows me, understand what I like to have and what I need, but this destiney is not my.