life is cruel

I have been climbing the wall lately for waiting the news from IBM, nothing come to me. I am blocked into an unhopeless. This is my last year at school, but i have been turned down for so many things, all that happened in the past month. I can't see any lights in front of the corner.  

Spark are leaving canada because of that stupid student visa staff.  Seems that it will also be my happy ending in canada.

Sometims I tried so hard, but it even does not help a little. Life is cruel.