there is alaways hopes

回來以後的頭兩個星期裏，自己一個人哭了一場， 為了等那久久沒有回複的一封信, 心理承受力比從前差了很多.得不到想要的,仿佛天塌了一般.早上10點起床,沒有郵件,又是新的一天,還不是要麵對.

我放棄了,也失望透了.這一切莫名其妙的發生,大起大落,最後毫無所終.我沒有損失什麽,不過從頭再來而已.下午在網上看到了新的post,又申請了新的.晚上回到家,跟cindy談起這件事,後悔,也隻是5分鍾.

there may not be any hope in the future, I JUST feel much better than the yesterday. That is the way people face to the failure and be prepare for tomorrow. I want that job so badly which make me act like someone else. Slow down! anyway, i had a bad week and totally pissed off. i never expect this had been so hard to get what I want. The bad thing is I am alone again even though I talked to mom dad throuh the phone. this is a big world but nobody really can help me out