底色 （節選）
作者：林采宜
許多人永遠走不出自己的童年,生命的底色總是在你不世事的時候就悄無聲息地打好了.
伊莎貝拉.鄧肯說,貧困使他的母親無法為孩子們請仆人或家庭教師,而恰恰是這種自由放任的童年賦予了她"一種自然發展的生命",成就了鄧肯無拘無束的舞蹈風格。她的舞姿自由飄逸，浪漫不羈，一反傳統芭蕾的種種規範與教條，表達自我的真實存在，舞出對生活悲劇性的領會。
天賦如同一粒種子，落在不同的土壤裏會長出姿態完全不同的植物。同樣是才女，冰心對海的感受和鄧肯就大不一樣。
作家冰心也是在海邊長大的，她筆下的海是溫柔的、秀美的。冰心的海，是天使的夢境。因為她的母親，溫柔如靜美的月亮，她的父親，莊嚴如燦爛的太陽——他們共同給了她溫暖幸福的童年。“一片冰心在玉壺”，活到80歲，依然童真，這是她的美麗。
無論是舞蹈的語言，還是文章的筆法，都脫不開作者的底色。性格決定命運，而童年的際遇決定了性格。無論感知、表達，還是生活方式、處世態度，都脫不去刻在骨子裏的烙印，而這烙印有先天的稟賦，有後天的曆練。“詩窮而後工”，沒有艱難困苦，看不透人生的深度，從這點看，冰心寫來寫去都是童話，都是夢境；張愛玲一支纖筆，穿透人世。
還是那句話，人，永遠走不出自己的童年。鄧肯的奔放、冰心的溫柔、張愛玲的陰鬱和自戀，處處都是童年的痕跡，童年的底色。
林貝卡 2010年7月14日 夏 於美國
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