8/11 星期五
(2006-08-11 00:19:19)
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終於到周五, 陽光明媚, 昨晚很早睡覺, 12點之前, 所以今天7點就醒來. 早睡早起還是不錯的, 至少起床沒那麽痛苦. 從地鐵站出來, 站在ESCALATOR上, 巨大的屏幕上在放BMW的廣告, 我突然想起[瘋狂的石頭]裏把BMW解釋成"別摸我", 忍不住笑了出來, BMW在中國市場的形象是徹底毀了. 一上午都在開會, 漫長無聊的會議, 日本人開會的效率不是一般的低, 說話拐彎抹角, 本來一句話就能說清楚的事情, 一定要饒來饒去, 美國那邊的人聽得雲山霧罩, 根本不知道最後是YES還是NO. 我攤開本子, 假裝記錄, 其實是在寫我的周末計劃和SHOPPING LIST. 會議結束, 都已經12點半, 我直奔GYM, 這周沒怎麽運動, 隻跑了一會兒就開始喘, 我旁邊的那個帥哥都氣喘如牛了, 還死活不肯停下來, 真是佩服. TREADMILL上麵的屏幕在放CNN NEWS, 全都是關於英國機場破獲恐怖分子的事情, 不許帶任何行李登機, 下回是不是連衣服也不讓穿, 飛機改天體營了, 整個世界都瘋狂, 這樣想來, 身邊的奇奇怪怪的人和事也還可以接受.
我的朋友MICHEAL在加州, 結婚了, 新娘是他在CHURCH裏認識的. MICHEAL幾年前曾在東京工作, 他那時候的女朋友也是在CHURCH認識的, 東京的一所中文教會. 我們聊天時, 我開玩笑說, "when did church start to become a dating spot?" 他笑, 在聽說我最近沒有DATING ANYONE後, MICHEAL勸我go to church, the chinese church he used to visit. I think, religion is supposed to be something much more serious, how can I use it for opportunities to meet guys? Its just so weird. But since Micheal trying so hard to convince me that God(or church?) might be able to arrange a special one for me, I accepted his suggestion, and said "yeah, I would like to check the church out". So today I got an invitation email from Micheal's friend Andy, who goes to the chinese church in Tokyo. I was staring at the email, and kept thinking, would I become a church goer???
Later had a talk with George, when I told him that I gonna go to church, he was like "WOW"... Apparently, I never sounded like a church goer type of girl to him, fine. I said, "I cant get up so early on Sunday, and plus, there are more girls than guys in church...kinda meaningless, but I can give a try", George was laughing, replied, "usually, church going guys are good, that is why girls all going to church, and try to find someone there. The point of going to church is not for guys, but that you pay a visit to God." Its my turn to laugh, I wrote, "I visit God anytime, in my dreams, or my daydreams." Laugh laugh...Another suggestion coming alone, "you should go to golf club, guys who go to golf club are rich and have depth, and healthy..." I typed, "oh yeah....who have too much time and money to fill holes?" He laughed too much to reply. Always a lot of fun to talk with Uncle George.
The thing is, I am kinda confused, and have no idea what I am looking for from a relationship, that is why I dont wanna go dating recently. Its always good to take a break for singles, which is not allowed for married people, maybe that is what I am afraid of from marriage, limited options, less freedom and change. I saw Micheal's wedding pics, they looked very happy, and the bride is pretty, adorable couple. I tried to imagine that pic, me, in a wedding, with hundreds of people there watching me to say "YES I DO", ewwww.... I felt itchy just by imagining that. I forgot who said that, if a single girl cant make a pic of her wedding, she is not ready for marriage yet. Right, that line makes sense.