《我沒有資格紀念您》石蝶
其實我沒有資格紀念您
十幾年了
我依然沒有
翻開那個永久浸泡在血色中
刀痕累累的封麵
一層層鮮活著痛的恥辱
深埋了我的勇氣
我沒有資格來紀念您
因為我不曾走過那蝕魂的路
不知道您經過了怎樣的地獄
同一個創傷
吞噬過聖女般的 Minnie Vautrin
和六十年後的您
我沒有資格來紀念您
十四億人中
我也是個卸了甲的男子
居然要一個花季的女孩兒
選擇了這個生命不可承受的使命
您昂然地去了
看昔日的魔鬼活在"優雅"中敘述
三十萬冤魂的製作
歸來時
地獄從此吸附著難再安寧的靈魂
無法褪去
真的，我沒有資格來紀念您
我隻能確定
有一天
我會帶上我的孩子到您的墓前
講您的故事
轉自網絡: Wilhelmina "Minnie" Vautrin (September 27, 1886 – May 14, 1941) was an American missionary, diarist, educator and president of Ginling College. She was a Christian missionary in China for 28 years. She is known for the care and protection of as many as ten thousand Chinese refugees during the Nanking Massacre in China,[1] at times even challenging the Japanese authorities for documents in an attempt to protect the civilians staying at her college. After persisting in the Nanking Safety Zone from 1937, she returned to the United States under extreme stress in 1940. She committed suicide there in 1941, still wishing in her diary that she could return to her work in China. Vautrin was posthumously awarded the Emblem of the Blue Jade by the Chinese government for her sacrifices during the Nanjing Massacre.
這樣一本書，竟然讓一個弱女子完成了。這幾天，後蜀花蕊夫人的"十四萬人齊解甲，更無一個是男兒" 一直縈繞在腦中。。。
