10/15

I hope things are well tonight, and that you didn't get too busy! ;)

How was your day? I've missed you more than I expected I think. As I
sat today reading, I kept finding myself looking up at the trees, but
blind to them...I would drift off and think of you smiling, laughing,
talking...and I felt so comfortable and happy.

Tonight is one of those times I wish you were here to see what I see.
The moon is almost full, the sky is crisp and clear...there is a
purple and silver glow that seems to cast on everything. The silver
color is like an aura, bathing everything in sight. In the sky, the
stars are very bright and defined, and some of them are different
colors...It really is beautiful, and my words cannot do it justice, I
am afraid. All I know is it could only feel better one other way, and
that is if you were here...I think you might be surprised just how
beautiful it is.

As I sat this afternoon and pondered the beans you gave me, I couldn't
help but find myself agreeing with you that they are very beautiful.
They are almost exact replicas of each other, and if they weren't
real, I'd assume that they were made by the skillful hands of expert
jewelers. I really think they are special, and the meaning behind them
is not lost on me. I want you to know that I cherish them.

(I just read what I had written so far, and I have to admit that being
in love with you has had a strange effect on my writing, and even my
train of thought. Just thought I should throw in a disclaimer if my
words sound a little sappy!)

I have yet to speak to my parents about things in my life. They
arrived home today, and we just enjoyed an evening like family,
putting off until tomorrow what we know will probably make for a long,
emotional conversation. I am promising myself that I will remain calm
and open minded to their opinions, and I will not react to the
emotional aspects. Watching how you remain calm in those circumstances
is reassuring to me that it is usually the best action to take. I
think you are such a patient person...not the other way around! ;)

I hope you sleep well tonight, . I pray that you are smiling
as you sleep, and that your dreams are happy ones.  (I know I will be
comfortable. I made up my bed tonight, and I am using the blankets you
gave me...for some reason, I think they keep me just a bit warmer and
more comfortable than any other blankets!  :) They also make it easier
to think of you...) Like I said, the only thing I feel I am missing is
you...

Thinking of you,

 

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How's your day? I kept thinking that everything will be fine with your parents. I don't want you upset or sad.

 

I had a tough Friday evening because the beer delivery guy, Ray, didn't show up as he promised. I called him every 30 minutes since 2:30pm, and finally I had to call his supervisor Jerry and yelled at him at 6:30pm. Jerry came to the store at 11am today and delivered the beers. I was upset because I was very nice to Ray but he took advantage of that. This is not the first time he didn't show up as he promised. This is the fourth time already.

 

Even though I yelled at Jerry,  I wasn't as upset as it seemed. If I don't show my anger, they would assume that it is not a big deal. Such a world!

 

I read your email before I went to bed last night though. So I smiled...and dreamed. We are always talking in my dreams. I guess that is because talking is pretty much all what we did.

 

I love your writing about the night scene. I read it many times today. It is so beautiful that I tried to picture what you'd seen in my mind. I am so happy that you shared that with me so that I can see the world through your eyes.

 

Most of the nights when I get off my car and walk home, I watch the moon high up in the sky, especially when it is right on top of the roof. I have the strange feeling that the moon is a wise old lady who watches us from the sky at night, who sees so many things happened in this world, and who is so quiet and loving...Maybe because some Chinese poems say that people can send their love through the moon to their family and friends:).

 

The beans are not all identical.  I picked two similar ones for you. At first I was going to give you one, then I thought it would be too lonely. So you got two of them.

 

n, when you have time and are in the mood, please write something about youself, anything. I'd like to know you better.

 

I am very trusting, but only to 99%. The last 1% is like a hard shell, very hard to penetrate. But all it takes is time...

 

I miss you. When you hold me in your arm, sometimes you swing your body slightly... I love that. Whenever I think of that, I smile.

 

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