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(2011-02-12 20:28:58)
Ikeepthinking,orsay,estimatingthedifficultiesbetweenBandme.Wehadsomegoodtime,butthosetimearemorelike...lucky,wedidn'tscrewthistime...lol.Iguesstheanswerisveryclear,eventhoughIhavebeentryinghardtomakedifferentapproaches,somaybeIwouldgetdifferentconclusions.Iamnot'perfectly'happyinthisrelationship,IfeelIamkeepingcompromising,eventhoughIhadputupwithitsofar,doIreallywannakeepdoingthis,especiallyitwill...[閱讀全文]
(2010-12-29 00:45:50)
Xmaswasalright,BandIspentasweetweekendtogether.Sat,webothexhausted,hehaddutythedaybefore,sobasicallynosleepatallonFridaynight,andI,drivingcourse,Xmasfoodshopping,cleaningandpreparingXmasdinner...Anyway,dinnerwasgood,everybodywashappy,andsleepinginonSundaywasevenbetter,finallywecouldrelaxabit.ItsgettingcoldinTokyo,andwestayedinforthewholeday,doingnothing,justlyingnexttoeachother,talkingaboutstuff,t...[閱讀全文]
(2010-12-25 04:00:44)
Xmasissuffering...ThisisthefirsttimeIspendXmaswithB,sowedecidedtoavoidallcheesy'special'dinnerswhichhavenothingspecialbutprices.Sowestayhomeandcook,actuallyitsnotWE,butI.Hehastospenddaytimewithhisdaughterforsomefamilytradition,andIhadearlymorningdrivingcourse,itturnedoutthatIrushedtoIsetanforthefoodshopping,whichwashell.Whosaidanythingbadabouteconomythisyear?Comeon,checkouthowcrowdedIsetanis.All...[閱讀全文]
(2010-12-04 09:10:03)
我無法停止思考,總是有一些事情在我的腦海裏盤轉.反反複複的想著同一件事情,但是每次進行到同一點,就無法繼續,好象電腦程序中的deadlock.我明白,是我潛意識裏不想去想,但我卻反複的逼迫自己去想.所以到了最艱苦的階段,沒有來由的終止.
Companypartylastnightwasgreat,Ihadfunandagain,verymuchdrunk.Therewasnoblackout,butstill,somepartofmemorieswasblurred.IcalledB,wetalked,Icantrememberwhatexactlywetalkedabout,...[閱讀全文]
Companypartylastnightwasgreat,Ihadfunandagain,verymuchdrunk.Therewasnoblackout,butstill,somepartofmemorieswasblurred.IcalledB,wetalked,Icantrememberwhatexactlywetalkedabout,...[閱讀全文]
(2010-12-02 19:12:17)
FRIDAY!!!Iamgoingtovacation~~Iamgoingtovacation~~Iwassoboredyesterday,whichreallybotheredmealot.Ifelttheboredomcrawlingoutofmyskinandtryingtodrownmeinsilence.WhenIambored,IamactinglikeanADDkid,Ineedsomethingtogetmyselfoccupiedrightaway.IchattedwithKevinforabit,toldhimhowIgonnasmashhisballsandbeatshitoutofhim,thenhegotpissedanddisappearedonme.ThenanothertalkwithLuke,ohdearLuke,thepureevila-hole,sma...[閱讀全文]
(2010-11-30 23:23:29)
Duringlunchbreak,Iwenttobookstore.NeedsomenewbooksformytriptoBali,lotsoftimetokillinflight,andjustincaseifIstayingsoberandbored,sittingnexttopool,readingbooksmightmakemelookabitbetter.Eat,Pray,Love,thebestsellerbook,whichhasbeenfilmedtoamoviestarredbyJuliaRoberts,issupposedtobeagoodbookforspiritualsoulsearchingorcheeringupdepressingfemalesorwhatever.SoItookitwithme,andcouldnthelpnoticingtheotheron...[閱讀全文]
(2010-11-11 00:59:23)
今天是我第3次試圖寫些什麽，前幾次都半途而廢。有很多事情botheringme,butnotsurewheretostart.工作開始平淡，每天做著重複的事情，其實也沒什麽好抱怨的，工作不辛苦，工資尚滿意，老板催著我放假，因為我今年的帶薪假日還剩很多。這樣的狀況，如果還是不滿足，那真是讓人無話可說。但是，隨著工作逐漸安逸，我的滿足感卻減少了，因為不需要100%專注於工作，我的各種胡思[閱讀全文]
(2010-10-26 20:15:25)
每個公司都應該有個舒服的衛生間，幹淨，溫暖，柔和的燈光，舒緩的音樂...衛生間不單是為了‘方便’，於我，那裏是最後的避難所。有時候坐在電腦前，看著不停閃爍的chat窗口，堆積如山的emails，卻沒有自己期待的那一封，疲倦，不停的逼迫自己工作卻無法提起精神，壓力到一定的警戒線，我就會躲到衛生間去。什麽都不幹，隻是坐在暖烘烘的toilet上（Godblesswhoeverinventedit[閱讀全文]
(2010-09-11 06:33:09)
CompanyBBQpartytoday,washot,butbetterthanIthought.Everybodybroughtgf/bforfamilymembers,andmybf,stillfaraway,sendingmsgtosaysorryandpromisedthathewouldmakeituptome...Idon'tknow,itseemswetalkalotaboutourfuture,butwouldwereallyhaveafuturetogether?OfcosIhopethingswouldworkoutforus,itsjust...Ireallydon'thavestrongfaithinrelationship,anditmightbemyproblem.Sofar,itsalwayseasyformetofallinloveandstartarel...[閱讀全文]
(2010-08-19 23:57:33)
時間過得真快，或者說我更新太慢。。。最近事情多多，煩心的事情也不少，心神不定的時候很難寫東西。在新team的工作已經開始1個月3周，磕磕碰碰的，仍在努力確立自己不可取代的位置，很多時候feelveryfrustrated,ittakesalotefforttogaintrustfrommembersinotheroffices,sincewedontseeeachothereveryday,itsnoteasytobuildupanycloserelation.Wewillhaveatestsoon,whichwastakenupbytheotherguyinmyteam,butsinceheisbusywithothe...[閱讀全文]
