衹能說我非常同情你卻幫不上忙,因為我怎麽都沒想到君孩子時如此痛苦才學會大勝大敗養病救火。。
However, it is all in the past. After all, it is only a language. Don't let a language traumatize you.
I think you should stay away from the source of your pain - the excruciating Chinese language.
Peace.