很想把事情說完整,奇怪的是,當時的強烈的感受,事後卻無法記起來。獨自安靜時,唯一清楚的是我寧可處在這混沌思緒中,也不會在提出離開,但我不強求他stay 因為他說"hate to hear his own voice when he has to tell someone that I am leaving"。