回複：asking for a raincheck :(

what do I want to get out of this whole thing?

Do I want to fanaticize that he still likes me and that he really does want to see me in his house?

If I bring my kids, what would he really feel?

I remember last year when he and I chatted about BBQ at his house, that night 我看到他的一絲羞澀。這麽難得和久違，抓不住他的在意會讓我痛。我真的就這麽興奮的去了，最後誰會最痛？我想一定是我。

剛看到邀請真的想把機票改了的衝動。

我必須知道我的目標：我要找回我自己

時時刻刻，就把他當作任何其他同事的邀請吧。

怎麽回別人，就怎麽回他吧。

我的情感在心裏，不增不減，不會逝去。