Thanks for the points. You are absolutely right!

How many times have I comforted myself he will be fine? And how many times have I told myself that that's enough, stop it.
Decision is always tough 'cause the real issue is my two boys. As a mom, I am willing to do whatever is best to them. I know the complete family with mom and dad is always the best for kids, however, is the situation btw my hu*****and and I good to them, even we rarely fight in front of them?
How about a divorce? I am sure my sons hate them, esp my older one who is 3 yrs old. He senses much more than people could imagine. How could I maximally decrease the trauma to them?