You should feel happy to divorce him.

life won't get any better for you if you don't do that. Your hu*****and is not an independent man, or not a fully grown-up man. It's hopeless to live with such a man when his parents are not the type you like.

You have serious judgement problem also from what you described above. You know you don't have the financial means to raise two kids. Why do you still want to keep both of them with you? Why don't you think about taking custoday of one child each? It may not be the best choice for your kids, but could be the least worst. There are usually no absolute winners in a divorce. Someone has to sacrifice. The best you can do is to work with your hu*****and to minimize the negatives to your kids.