I am waiting here. Thank you so much. He is making decent comp

I try my best to survive in California to provide my kids the dreaming life I wanted. I won't ask a penny from him for sure if the calculation shows he needs to pay me. I believe he had full confidence on that, that's the reason he dare to attack me all the time when something is on his favor. I really don't have time, energy or mental attitude to fight back when the case turns around. I feel the full obligation to support my kids and I won't request more from kids' father beyond what they voluntarily to pay and if I can survive by myself. But sorry, on the other hand, I don't want to always pay a healthy, wealthy and high educated engineering man with decent and stable job and he was always unhappy and cursed me taking advantage of him(mostly because of my son) although I have paid more and financially supported my son soly. He doesn't have kids from his previous marriages. Thank you so much and sorry if I hurted your eyes or feeling.