You really should go back to China.

Nobody will blame you. Even your boss would understand. You shouldn't let your baby take this risk. Your mother either. Don't trust anyone now. If someday you find you had a wrong dicition, everything will be too late.

Money, house, job... those are things, but your baby is a life! You have respon*****ility to take care of your own baby! You are a mother, nobody can be your baby's real mother!