For me, love must be rational, before it gets romantic.

Since I realized that he is at least 20 yrs older than me, I have been calculating how many yrs he can earn income, and why I would want to improverish myself by choosing this guy. And if he is married, he would have to pay alimony. Then, why would I want to choose a hu*****and whose wage goes to another woman and a child who is not my own? Ha, all the rational thinking means I really have no love for that guy. Or I am really looking for the perfect Mr. Right, and he is simply not the one.