Thank you Kaolin, didn't get chance to write back, but

I've been using "天將降大任於斯人也，必先苦其心誌，勞其筋骨。。。空乏其身，行拂亂其所為，所以動心忍性，etc" to encourage myself to hold myself in one piece and move on day by day for the past 4 years, am I really going to shoulder the GOD knows "天降大任" in the future? Everybody knows that we just live for today, I never ever got a chance to look for future, since I've been working 60 to 65 hours per week for those past years, I have to make sure everything running well within my team, otherwise, she could use any excuse to blame me.

Is the GOD blessing her more? I just don't get it?  Thanks.