okay, maybe I don't know as you said, but, look at every single

topic you posted here before, even the dumb guy could figure out what is happening to you, did you ask the question like: what does the co-worker think when they see someone crying ?
you also said, you cried a lot, right?
ok, whatever you desire, I wish you best, I am a joke guy, ok, you happy? if a joke guy can make you feel better, I would rather be that. but, you do have mental health care problem right now, I am not a scout or detective, but, I hope you know better;