據說, 近代淨土宗大師印光法師生前在他的閉關之所, 總要貼上一個大大的“死”字, 勸勉自己和修行弟子們要向死而生, 不可醉生忘死誤了往生淨土的修行。這對於修行人的精進奮發 的確是一個好辦法。
即使是對凡俗的世人,也許, 偶爾花一點時間思考死亡,也同樣不是一個壞主意,這樣可以讓我們逐漸對死亡的不可回避變得習慣,並進一步理解這種不可避免的事情實屬自然,算不得糟糕得那麽不像話。
當然,我並沒有打算每天都以固定的方式思考死亡,但我確實嚴肅地思考過這個問題,而且也覺得這樣做有些效果。
我童年的時候曾經有過一次嚴重的溺水,那種垂死的滋味, 有點像在夢裏從懸崖邊上突然失足於黑暗的虛空。 在莫名的恐懼中, 我拚命的蹬,拚命的抓, 不想讓自己陷入那黑色的虛空, 因為虛空之外有我渴望的世界, 在那裏有生物在逍遙, 有形狀在遊動, 有事情在發生……. 而我將在沒有準備、完全無知中被拋棄在這一切之外,人生的凶險恐怖無過於此。
哈哈, 上當了吧, 以上說的當然都是今天臨時想出來的話, 一個童年的小屁孩哪裏有這樣的心思!回想起來, 那時候纏繞我的隻有喘不過氣來的痛苦的掙紮, 意識中不斷重複的一句話隻不過是: 這他nn的太難受啦 !他nn的啊!。。。
這句話本應該是一聲震耳發聵的呐喊,但真實的情形是, 一直到肚子灌滿水並昏迷著漂浮於水麵, 我從始至終沒有發出一點聲音, ——這沒有什麽可奇怪的, 換了誰也一個樣, 因為一張嘴就有水往裏麵灌嘛!
在又活了幾十年後的今天, 我終於明白, 其實黑暗的虛空也並沒有什麽可怕。 幾年前做常規腸鏡檢查,不知道醫生給我使用的是什麽麻醉, 我隻記得 自己在數著1,2,3.。。。中迷失, 又在數著1,2,3.。。中醒來,首尾相續,環環相接, 一點不記得自己曾經沉睡, 而其間的1個多小時的時間在我記憶和生命中似乎從來不曾存在,甚至沒有一點朦朧的夢境緩衝,這是我一生中感覺最奇特的經曆, ——這一個多小時與死亡有什麽不同?時空都消失了, 天地就是春秋 ,哪裏有什麽世界, 哪裏有什麽你我?
虛空,虛空的虛空,不就是這個樣子嗎? 據我研究的結論, 這個時候, 世人所不同於佛的地方, 隻不過是佛能在清明覺知中進入了這種超越時空的境界。
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生命的沉重, 是老去的無能。 當自然老去的時候, 每個人總有一天都要問: 誰來照顧我?
這句問話其實就是死亡的信使, 預示著從那一天起, 死亡不再是遙不可及的事,而將隨時發生。
正視死亡是明智的理性, 為了我們心靈的平靜,我們的生命就必須涉及理性和有計劃的管控。因為我們所有人都會對死亡的過程感到某種程度的焦慮。
這個過程取決於你是因什麽而死。身體可以 以極其扭曲的方式衰竭,緩慢而痛苦,需要非常堅忍的態度,但生命也可以在頭暈目眩的瞬間關閉。我勤勞一生的姥姥離去的那個傍晚, 言談舉止沒有一點病態,那時正是麥收時節, 她前一分鍾還坐在麥束前摘著麥穗, 忽然就垂下了頭, 幾分鍾後停止了呼吸。 這樣的離去是值得羨慕的。
雖然期望輕鬆地死去並不現實,但希望有這樣的機會也不是沒有道理的。據說修行好了可以掌控生死,或者至少能積福到讓那場歸去完成的近乎完美, 近年逝世的元音大師, 95歲高齡, 寓所中正在講法的時候, 突然就去了。相似的還有南懷瑾大師, 也是95歲高齡西去, 據說是在定境中走的,—— 這個值得存疑 , 但總之走的也算利索。
但台灣的聖嚴法師, 還有聞名古今的玄奘大師, 圓寂前都身曆了不小的病苦。 —— 雖然他們修行的心境確實也讓這些病苦看起來不像凡俗那樣艱辛孤淒。
據說修靜入定達到四禪就可以瀟灑地坐脫立亡, 但沒有實踐的切身體會, 這恐怕永遠也說不清, 在這裏很希望有修習打坐達到入定程度的人現身說法。
也許 安樂死是更能被世俗大眾所理解和接受的告別人生的方式,隻要這不會變成另一種為牟利而操作的變相殺戮,—— 那當然是不能容忍的。
期望輕鬆歸去的情緒可以理解, 但在今天這確實還是一個問題!
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