第一天回公司上班 (附《潮濕的心》)
文章來源: 暖冬cool夏2024-03-08 10:06:28

自去年十月初公司關閉舊辦公室,一晃過去半年。同部門的一半人員已經早早搬遷去了那裏上班,剩下我們另一半要等大樓徹底裝修完畢才返回上班。在家上班何樂不為?在家上班多好,不用早起,早上慢悠悠地睡到自然醒,起床先log in, 佯裝上班了,然後下樓做早飯。中午可以吃上熱騰騰新鮮做的飯菜,不忙時,飯後有時還能睡上一個午覺。兩個人在家上班,不忙時還可以抽空打半小時乒乓球。當然某人上班很忙,沒日沒夜地加班,有時候忙得一天都不曾下樓,飯菜都端上去吃,可即便如此,他還是很享受在家上班。

眼瞅著大樓裝修完畢,回公司上班的風聲一天緊一天,我開始有了一點抵觸情緒,心裏抱怨著自己為什麽不能像部門裏的有些人一樣可以永遠在家上班。想著去公司上班的種種不是,新office搬的遠了,不,應該說原來的office離家太近了,把人給寵壞了。新office實行一間cubicle大家輪流坐,所謂的hoteling workstation, 這樣每天要拎著電腦上下班,要用的東西也要每天來回帶。最關鍵的一點是,去office上班意味著那種自由、隨意、flexibility的消失。。。

不過目前一星期也才要求去一次,怎樣說都不過分。

新的office在一個新的商業開發區,四周都是商店和寫字樓。馬路對麵有Walmart,有銀行,幾個blocks之外有Costco, 新蓋的居民區房子也是鱗次櫛比,雖然地處城市的另一邊,雖然目前裏麵的寫字樓租賃還比較清淡,但是它的逐漸興起,fledgling,確實預兆著一種趨向。新開發的商業辦公區外表看很modern, 走進去也是一樣是非常modern的設計。挑高的樓頂是用一片片狹長的不鏽鋼組合成的,不鏽鋼片下麵是粗粗的鋁合金通風管,旁邊拉著各種橫的豎的線和繩索,吊著各種大小長短不一的燈。抬頭往上看,這就像一座鋼筋鐵架組成的壁壘和城堡,低頭往下看,懸空的可以看到下一層的上班人員坐在清一色的cubicle麵朝電腦,正襟危坐。再環視一下四周,高大的玻璃窗像一堵落地牆,透著光亮,又將人與外麵世界的藍天白雲隔絕著。極目望去,即可以看見另一棟同樣結構的樓層,又可以俯瞰臨街馬路上川流不息的車流,盡收眼底城市的天際線(skyline)。

 

 

 

第一天上班,我抽空特意去跟一些老同事打照麵。大家彼此熱情地擁抱著,聊著。中午幾個人相約在公司的廚房吃了飯,飯後又一起去附近的停車樓走路。

我們沿著四層停車樓的斜坡一層層往上走,再一層層下來,如此循環三四次。一樓的停車場基本挺滿了車,越往上越空蕩蕩。一起走路的是兩名不同組的女同事,她們在這邊上班已近一年了,對這裏的情況很了解。我們邊聊邊走,走到三層時,邊上的同事示意我說,這輛車在動,我眼睛飄過最近的一輛黑色奔馳。車的後車廂部分確實在動。在我還有幾分迷惑是怎麽回事時,同事又加了一句,“裏麵有人像我們一樣在運動,是兩個人一起運動。” 我立馬明白了,下意識地把視線從tinted的玻璃窗上挪開,在責怪自己反應遲鈍外,心裏不免有一絲疑惑:同事怎麽一眼就瞥見,難道她們不是第一次看見?(在我的工作生涯中還是第一次見到。難道也是因為疫情讓人變得那麽急不可耐:))

下午的時光顯得特別漫長。飯後走過路,坐下來麵對帶點反光的辦公樓,困意襲來,便主動去廚房倒來一杯咖啡提神。很快,睡意驅散,高效率地做了不少事,還讀了雜誌上一篇的文章。

五點多收拾下班。開出商業區,迎麵多雲的天空幾分暗淡,一堆堆厚厚的雲層鋪疊著。一個轉彎後上了快速道,明晃晃的後視鏡裏折射的是西邊天空的光亮和日落前的餘暉,前後的反差形成鮮明的對比。

很快車子堵在了早上來時的同一個地方。看著前方的車水馬龍,聽著熟悉radio裏的英文,我靜靜享受著這二十多分鍾的獨處時光-- 放下工作,放下回家後即將要去麵對的很多瑣事,讓思緒飛揚。

一場疫情改變了人類的生活方式、工作方式和商業模式,打破了上班族一星期五天的朝九晚五,大大衝擊了實體店和實體經濟。疫情後,人們意識到每日驅車去上班是一種資源浪費,尤其是對那些離家遠的上班族,一日日早出晚歸,堵在車道上,時間、能源無可厚非地被浪費掉。三年的wfh好像又讓人走向另一個極端,大家一個個關起門來上班購物交友,人與人的關係和距離疏遠拉開了。

然而現實生活中,偶遇、邂逅、一見鍾情,甚至“車震”,目睹“車震”都發生在雙腳踏出家門之後:)人不能蝸在自己的小天地小圈子裏停滯不前,那樣,對外麵世界發生的事,會慢慢失去感官上的認知,最終導致偏離社會軌道和脫節(derail)。比如我,如果今日不去公司上班,就不會開車走過半年都不想到去一回的地方-- 那一片的發展、繁忙和變化,都是日日關在家裏所不能看見的。所謂太陽每日都是新的,隻有走出家門看見了才能感知得更深刻。從某種意義上來說,走出像鳥籠一樣關閉的小圈子是圈子本身的一種自動延伸和拓展。

或許這種hybrid是一種最佳的生活工作模式,它兼顧到生活的方方麵麵,不僅減輕我們在commute上的負擔,也全球性地節省了能源。它賦予了這種與身俱來的在家上班的彈性和自由,又給了我們融入社會與眾mingle/huddle的契機,讓我們的生活有張有弛。

從本質上說,人是群居動物,人的感情是相處出來的,雖然,相識相連可以隔空可以在雲端,真正情感上的撞擊又是需要摩擦產生,最有效的無異於physical上的麵對麵,手拉手抑或是“車震”:)。而這些大多是隔著屏幕無法產生和替代的。

不得不承認,在office上班效率高,思想集中,比起在家上班東摸摸西摸摸更有效率。就好比一塊布,在公司上班,時間是整塊的,而在家上班,一塊布便被我們剪得零零碎碎,隨風無影無蹤地飄逝在時光的隧道裏。

 

First day back to the office (Return to Office RTO)

After another six months’ respite of working from home, a return to work in the office looks long overdue. Today, March 7th, marks my first day back to the office. Life has been good working from home, when I woke up to the natural light, logged in to the computer in my robe before I went downstairs to prepare the breakfast. Life has been good without getting up hastily, dressed and rushing to the busy traffic. Life has been good when I ate freshly cooked lunch instead of microwaved leftover, taking a short nap on a cozy bed whenever possible. Life has been good when I worked on my own pace without the little boss breathing down my neck. On top of that, time to commute is saved, so is gasoline and car usage.

But the comfort of working from home is not without a cost. Many a night, I was found sitting in front of the computer finishing up the linger work that could have accomplished at daytime. The line between work and off-work hours is so blurred that overtime becomes almost a routine.

As I entered the new parking structure, the gate bar automatically lifted to allow my registered car in. With heavy handbags filled with a laptop, a water bottle and some office supplies, I plodded to an unfinished elevator to take me to the fourth floor, where I am going to spend my whole day there.

A modern, clean and bright high-ceiling office welcomed me, but to walk through symmetrically and uniformly assembled cubicles without a seat chart is akin to a mouse scuttling through a zigzagged maze. After a detour and an inquiry, I found a hotel cubicle assigned to our department.

Hoteling workstation, as the name says all, is said to be a new popular cost-effective office model. Seating myself under a steel-plate-strung roof, beneath which crisscrossed with large aluminum ventilations, vertical or horizontal lighting tubes, cables, wires and fashionable decorative hanging lamps, I felt like working at a warehouse.

The office was quiet, except for a continuous humming noise in the background, as if a huge fan were whirring non-stopped. When the sun broke out in the afternoon, its ray glaringly sailed down through the unfiltered floor-to-ceiling windows. The long narrow lighting above the cubicles only adds to the dazzle.

I walked around and stopped by a corner window overlooking a main street. Shut off by the window is a hustling noisy world where cars are running among concrete jungles. A broad skyline of the city is visible under a half-overcast sky.

Drowsiness crept upon around 2 o’clock in the afternoon. I had to go to the kitchen and fetch a cup of coffee to freshen up myself. Other than that, a workday at office is no doubt more effective and productive. And amicable face-to-face greetings and exchanges between co-workers are a cherry on top.

 

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