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昨晚躺在床上看歐洲杯, 意大利對西班牙, 後半場的時候我就睡著了, 再醒來已經是PK戰, 西班牙成功出線, 我的預測超級準確, 應該去賭球, lol. 然後又一次睡著, 醒來, 遲到, 無所謂, 天蹋下來我都無所謂, 何況遲到... 老板S又要抓狂.
周六和高中同學聚會, 一個高中同學結婚, 懷孕, 為她慶祝的party. 好久沒見到那麽多高中的朋友, 大家在一起很開心, 不過話題大部分圍繞兩個主題, 一是工作, 二是家庭, 我都提不起興趣來. 工作最近不順利, 壓力大得很, 我根本不想提, 至於家庭, 想談我也得有啊?! 一個同學就快要當爸爸了, 忙著給懷孕的女生介紹經驗, 要注意這個, 注意那個... 我聽得有點頭暈. 聚會的主角, 準媽媽, 在去年12月認識她現在的丈夫, 然後在3個月內火速結婚, 現在懷孕4個月. 真讓人佩服, 我感歎得不得了, 曉在一旁對我說, "Jess, 結婚是需要勇氣的, 象你這樣東挑西挑的..." 我有東挑西挑嗎? 後來, 準媽媽給我們看她在醫院檢查時拍的她肚子裏的
baby影像, 3D, 4D什麽的, 淨是高科技. 可以清楚的看到baby的形狀, 大腦袋, 小手, 還有腿, 4個月就可以看這麽清楚, 我以前真的不知道, 大部分女生都充滿母愛的討論baby的手啊腳啊, I was kinda feeling that I wanna throw up, I just had dinner about 20 mins ago, and that little freaky alien look baby kinda scared me in a very strange way, no offense, I am sure that it would be a very cute baby. Anyway, I had great time with all my friends, except the weather really sucks.
昨晚我跟D聊天, 我很委婉的提出, 我們是不是可以考慮step back a little, well, breaking up... Cos I really think this long distance thing doesnt make much sense, and its suffering. A healthy relationship should be able to make me happy, if I am not happy, why I wanna do it? Just set each other free, it would be much easier for both of us. But D said, "Dont give up, keep trying..." LOL, I really dont know what we trying for, well, whatever then.
I wanna run away again, from Tokyo.
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