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周末加班,辦公室還是悶熱.等軼來,晚上和她一起吃飯.
臨出門的時候,一邊化妝,一邊放[sex and the city],我的習慣,"聽"電視劇,不是"看".正好是那一集,Mr.Big可能要搬去PARIS,CARRIE很興奮的宣布說,她也可以跟他一起去PARIS.But Mr.Big said, "dont go to Paris for me, I dont want u to make big decisions to change your life for me." Then Carrie was so upset, "Why is it so tough to fit me inot your life?" Good question, 一瞬間,我愣住,站在鏡子前,不知道魂飛到哪裏去.I knew exactly how Carrie felt, and I knew how painful it was as well. When did I ask the same question? A few years ago? And who was the asshole I asking to? I couldnt even remember clearly, when, how, why, or who, but there was something I never be able to forget, --the feeling of pain. It has been hiding deep inside of my heart, and seems I have already forgotten everything related to it, but the fact is, with only a similar drama scene, it can come back to me easily. It has never gone, just like a haunting ghost. Sometimes I think [sex and the city] is a really cruel show, it just being too real, so many scenes might be able to remind of your own bad experiences easily, which you actually have spent a life long time to try to forget. A relationship without pain is just worthless, but where is the line when the lovely romantic pain could turn out to be a real pain pain? It sounds like a big puzzle which worth of millions to solve.
Yesterday chatting with George, who is currently in HK, and has lots of free time to get online, he asked me, what kinda guys I was looking for. Honestly, I didnt have any specific image, its kinda feeling thing, you couldnt define it by rules or conditions. But I still tried to figure out some lines, "err...wise, honest, mentally and physically strong...with a stable and respectful job, loves adventure and travel..." George typed, "I fit all your conditions", I replied, "oh yeah? and he has to be SINGLE!" He laughing, "I am too lazy to compete with another woman and a paper of marriage, you know that", I added. I have known this guy for almost 5 years, we still talk to each other, and I wanna be able to talk to him for another 5 years, which means I better not get involved with him physically or emotionally, even though he is really wise, charming, and generous.
Got to go, Yi is waiting for me now.
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